hahaha.. =P

Come on man. leave some comments or chat a the C box thingy when you guys visit!! hehe =) it is nice to have some visitors... =P hahah..

Thats all... lazy to write anything!! =P

can't sleep.

hmmm....its already like about 2 sth now. i'm suppose to sleep early today after that big meals i had saturday, few hours ago. =P and it was a long day too. but yet... hmmm...just cant sleep. noone to talk to. noone is online. haih.
so i guuess i thought of talking to my blog instead of talking to myself like a retard. =P haha.
It's just so hard to stop loving someone so much isnt it?? =P haha.
without love, we have nothing at all..to be honest. =P after falling deeply in love.. theres and long long long way back to the top. hehehe =P its all so true.. =P :P

Hey bloggin is fun!! hahah i get to talk to someone else beside myself.. so great... =).. never had many ppl to talk to, so i guess its jsut me and my blog. hahaha =P talkign to each other. posting blogs and expressing my feelings, its just what i am doing in the blog. =P so that i wont express so much in the public and al i guess.. hahaha =P i don't know.

ok la..i also lazy to talk already.. =P haha byebye blog!! good night!! =)

p.s. stomach not feelingg well now.. argghhh..pain!! =P ;P

hmmmm...

I'm so so fulll!! what a day man!! =P Ate so so so much!!!!! MY GOD!! =P hahaha...my stomach feels so blotted up man.!! =P
Anyway, i alsodon't know whats the point of me blogging anyway, noone reads mine.. =P haha so ya, might not blog much then.
Just like everything in my life is..invisible!! hahaha. =P and oh ya unnoticeable. =P if thats a word.. haha =P
ok la..nothing much already. thats all.

I dreamed I was missing,

You were so scared,

But no one would listen,

Cause no one else cared.

After my dreaming,

I woke with this fear,

What am I leaving,

When I'm done here.

So if you're asking me,

I want you to know,

When my time comes,

Forget the wrong that I've done,

Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed,

And don't resent me,

And when you're feeling empty,

Keep me in your memory.

And,

Leave out all the rest.

Confusion.

I just don't know what to do what to think what to believe in.

i'm totally unstable man. trying so hard to do something positive man.. 

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There is my blog. just finished blogging. this explains my frustrations and desperation and also my obsessive love to a person. whom i dunno how does she feels now. haih.

ok thats all. bye!.

Forever <3

Look at this what i did in class, this is 1 of the best i have done so far.. check it out... hehe =P I just couldn't keep her off my mind, so this is what i did.. =P hehehe.

It isn't so nice drawing, but i think it is ok.

better than nothing, it looks better in real.

hehehe.

I Love You So Much! =')

why are things so weird? why can't they be more simple and less complicating.

and why do guys like me suck so much?.. =P i should be braver and more demanding!! hehehe.. and thats who i shall become.. =P ehehe.

OK. so back to what's going on. my legs are hurting man.. i hate them.. they are so fucking shit ass legs... can not get better 1. so dam shit. oh ya, and recently my stomach aint feeling so good for a month or so. trying to settle this stomach problem soon. but if can't nvm.

just die only mar. nothing big also. she wants to die young. i want to die younger.. hahaha =P

oh ya, class test are this week man!! OH NO!! I hate studying!! I hate exams!! these are the 2 most hated thing in my life. =P

but on the other hand, i do love learning!! just love learning new stuff...knowing new interesting stuff. but dont want exams.. Thats THE WORST!!!

oh ya, that day in ict class, i found some persons blog, which had this Ah Beng jokes, which were so freaking funny!! hahaha.. A Dog Named Sex!! =P hilarious!! hahah. Ah Beng is a singaporean version of mr. bean. something like that, according to my dad.. ahaha..only difference is that Ah Beng talks more and silly.

ok, i guess thats all.. tata.. see ya.. bye!! =P

Lonely =(

I thought i was like able to be back on my feet and just live on.

But hey, i guess it just doesn't happen to me. i just feel so lonely sometimes.. at home, in school, where ever i am. nobody seems to understand me nor notice me i think. i just want to be like noticible or at least happy all the time. And to be missed when i'm gone at least even for a while. Is it so hard to be wanted by at least someone?? =P my god.
haih, and the worst thing is that, i don't knwo whether i can even cope with my studies. haih. I need MOTIVATION!! =(
I never ever want to live without you. but just for the sake of others i do.

She'll never know how much i do love her.
Noone will ever know how much i would give.
How much there is i would offer.
But, so what...all this doesnt matter in the end.

I've been in the darkness for too long,

trying to get out for life,

knowing that there will be never another,

just doing me best to keep on.

I Miss You Lots!

:'(

It has been a while.

hahaha... hey hey hey.
it has been sometime since i came here.. =P
so just decided to post something up! =P it is already 2 in the morning, date: 11 july night, 12 july morning. haha =P
nothing to say acctually. but just that it is 1 hell of a sucking life i'm having. =P

there's never a day, i would leave you,

never ever thought i would fall so deep,

but if you must go then at least know,

that I Love You. <3

hmmm... lets see, school now a days ahs been quite boring, really do not have the will to study much lately, been very lazy. haha. =P

hey ok, i guess thats all, going to play some com games to try to sleep now.. hehe =P

this is Derrick Ng, signing off. good night everyone!